10.08.2005
Peaches
Only balls are for throwing. But peaches look an awful lot like balls.
I have a peach. It is an ugly peach, and mangled. I think I can salvage a few bites out of it.
Chivalry
Oh yes.
Featured Features
Last week it was noses. This week it's eyes.
Bay-bee liked it better when it was noses.
10.07.2005
Hi-ic!
I am an extremely heavy sleeper. From time to time Andy has to wake me up to inform me that the baby is crying. (His precise words, I believe, were "the fish is on." The man is beautifully lucid at 2:00 AM.) But the other night, September's hiccups kept me awake.
10.06.2005
Baby!
Babies are such wonderful things that Nathan decided he needed one of his own. Thus he carries around a little blue beanie bear. He calls it Bay-bee and gives it kisses. Sometimes his baby gives my baby kisses. The other day I was admiring his baby, and I absently squnchled its little teddy-face. Meepo immediately whisked the bear away from me, and looked at me very reproachfully.
"Gen-to!"
9.27.2005
The things you find in your closet...
9.22.2005
Chinese water torture
...interrupted every 40 seconds or so by a bored voice saying "your call IS important to us."
Torture. Sheer torture.
9.20.2005

Stanton McDonald-Wright mapped the twelve colors of the color wheel onto the twelve tones of the chromatic scale, and then proceeded to paint in the various resulting keys and modes. His "synchromies" are astoundingly beautiful---music for the eyes. I've been fascinated with the concept ever since I saw an exhibit of his work at LACMA four years ago... so I spent Sunday afternoon experimenting around with the color wheel while my guys were dooping around the park.
9.18.2005
9.13.2005
Trucks
The boys like talking about trucks. They loudly announce it whenever they see a truck. Or when they see something that looks sort of like a truck. The oil drills at Huntington Beach look like trucks. Mommy isn't sure what it is that looks like a truck at church, though.
"Tr" is a very hard sound to make. That does not keep the wuggies from talking about trucks, though.
Mommy is beginning to regret all the time she spent helping the wuggies learn to say "flower" and "foot."
Dadders tried to teach the wuggies how to say "chruck." Mommy thought it was supposed to be "truck." Grandpa Duck and Grandma Duck went to school for a long time to learn about making funny sounds, so it was a good thing they were there. Everybody had lots of fun talking about how to say "truck" all the way home from the beach.
But Dadders still says "chruck." Mommy still says "truck." And the wuggies still say... something else.
9.09.2005
Office Supplies
--Read
--Watch a movie
--Practice breathing excercises
--Visualize soothing waves on the beach
--Listen to soothing music
--Take your toddler to the emergency room
Saturday night, August 27, the contractions were getting pretty fearsome, and I wondered if it might be time to head on over to the hospital. I sat down in the rocking chair, in good view of the clock, to start timing the contractions.
Before I'd had the chance to even start timing, however, Nathan clambered up on chairs (carefully stacked up where they couldn't use them to climb up on the kitchen table) and from there, onto the table by the door. He, the big metal-rimmed basket, and the lamp, all tumbled down in a big tangle.
There was blood everywhere. Andy was at work, and I couldn't get through to his cell phone. The blood was coming from underneath lots of thick blond hair, and I had no idea how many cuts there were, or how serious it was. Isaiah very much wanted to help me clean his brother up, and brother very much did not want to let me clean him up. And I was going into labor...
I eventually got through to Andy via email. He came home and took us all to the emergency room. And the doctor stapled my son's head back together. With actual staples, just like the ones I use to attach hold multi-page documents together!
I'm glad that September decided to wait until the next day to be born. And I'm especially glad that she's a little girl. Little girls provide enough drama of their own sort, or so I hear.... but it doesn't usually involve getting covered in office supplies.
9.06.2005
Bob
But the ultrasound didn't clear anything up at all because September (or Bob) was a very modest little baby.
And so we embarked on the difficult task of finding the perfect name for a little person that we couldn't bring ourselves to believe might actually exist. After listening in on lots of conversations about "what do we name September if she turns out to be Bob?" the boys figured out that my belly was called "Bob." They would poke my blossoming tummy, gleefully saying "Bobm!"
We never could agree on a boy's name that we both liked, until one night I had a dream about giving birth to a little boy named Matthias Robert. The dream itself was one of those bizarre pregnancy nightmares, but we loved the name--and it was quite a relief to finally be prepared for the possibility of Bob.
After our little September-girl made her appearance, Dadders brought the wuggies in to meet their little sister. The boys tiptoed into the room, quiet and alert, almost reverent. Nathan came up to me, as I sat on the rocking chair with September on my lap. He looked at my deflated midriff, then at the squirmy little thing on my lap, and pondered for a moment. After considering the situation, he grinned and announced, "Bobm!"
The boys like Bob a lot... and the other day Isaiah spoke his first sentence. "Bobm wuggy!"
We wondered and wondered, and now we know. September is herself...
...and she is Bob!
Premature Balding
Others do the job for them.
9.05.2005
September Persephone
And she hiccups just as much as she did in utero.
8.24.2005
Counting
I have no idea what to make of this.
Meanwhile, in the afternoon, while Natebug was helping Dadders pick up some groceries at Vons, Isaiah helped me bundle our loose change into rolls. He was enthralled as I counted out the pennies into stacks of ten. It was enormously exciting.
"Gum-gum-gum-TEN!!!"
8.21.2005
A sober reminder...
As we pulled into our parking spot, Andy turned to me and said sheepishly, "I'm half tempted to go back and drive through it, just for the fun of it." I was half tempted, too... so, given that two halves make a whole, we followed our irrational impulse.
The officer took one look at Andy's license, and sternly informed him that it had expired. Gulp. No, wait... it expires on the 30th. He has a week to take care of it. With everything else going on in our lives, we never would have remembered on our own!
As we breathed a sigh of relief, the officer glanced over to the passenger side and saw my bulging belly. It was his turn for a scare. "You aren't on your way to have that baby, are you?" We reassured him that no, I was still weeks away from my due date... but he sent us swiftly on our way nevertheless! He looked a bit shook up at the possibility (however minute) of a woman giving birth while waiting at a random sobriety checkpoint.
8.19.2005
Straw Men
But there's an art to drinking out of a straw, and the pickles haven't quite worked out all the nuances. This afternoon I gave Isaiah a lid-less cup with a little bit of water and a straw. Straw in mouth, he carefully tipped the cup so that he could drink the water. Of course, he just kept tipping it further and further, and never got any of it anywhere but down his shirt...
It never occurred to me how counter-intuitive the method for straw-drinking is. Nor how exceedingly different it is from the method for sippy-cup drinking.
8.18.2005
Salty
I take that back. They would touch them, smoosh them, smear them, scatter them... just not eat them.
I just caught Isaiah taking measures to make sure that such a mistake never happens again.
I'm glad salt vaccuums up easily.
I wish that were the case for deviled eggs.
8.14.2005
Drill Bits
But then Wuggidy taught him how to make that noise right back, and suddenly the drill was okay. Not as much fun nearly as the hack-saw, and certainly something requiring a safe distance... but okay.
And this morning, as we got ready for church, Wuggidy continued to perfect his drill impression. It's getting quite realistic. Andy tried to make the drill sounds back at him, but it didn't sound nearly so drill-like. What a talented son we have!
8.10.2005
The Numerous Personages of Our Household
I was busily examining a voter registration notice for Mr. Elena Johnston, when the phone rang for the fifth time. This time it was for Mrs. Elena AndyJ.
All this is rather harmless and amusing, but last month our auto insurance policy was cancelled because the underwriters discovered that in addition to me, there was also another Elena Johnston in our household. She was apparently a few years older than me.
I just hope that Schroder Management Company never finds out just how many people are living in this apartment!
8.07.2005
Lemming Pickles!
Then they went out to the living room, and discovered that they can also play this game on the couch, by standing on the back of the couch and jumping down onto the cushions.
This can be a bit startling for anyone who happens to be sitting on the couch at the time.
8.05.2005
Irony
And I will be attempting to cram three carseats into the back of a tiny little Tercel.
Looking on the bright side, we'll get great gas milage on our little trips around town. And we aren't the ones paying for the gas that goes in the SUV.
Nevertheless, the green in me is indignant at the flagrant waste of non-renewable resources... and the rest of me is green with envy.
I'm grateful, I really am. It will be so nice to have a car while Andy is at work. But I'm having a hard time getting over the absurdity of the situation.
7.28.2005
32 weeks and 2 days!
Thank you, Jesus!
7.26.2005
If I were...
If I could be a gardener...
...I would have lots of fruit trees. And I would have a big herb garden, so I could cook with fresh herbs all the time. And I'd plant so many flowers that there would be plenty left over to make the garden pretty even after I'd filled every corner of the house with cut flowers and given lots to my friends. I recently sat on someone's porch swing who had lots of big, fragrant mint plants by the porch... it was sublime. I would definitely plant tomatoes, but I'm not so sure about carrots. Carrots just sound like a lot of work---and the freshness of carrots just isn't nearly as exciting.
If I could be a chef...
...then I guess my husband would just have to be a gardener. Actually, we'd both be gardeners and chefs together. Cooking together is so much fun. Besides, I'd need somebody to keep me from getting too adventurous. (That cucumber smoothie surely would have been spectacular if I'd just put in a little less salt...)
If I could be a musician...
...I would be every bit as adventurous as if I were a chef! I would write lots of avant-garde music that pushed the envelope. But don't worry. It would still be pretty and joyous and hopeful and poignant and innocent. It would also be heartbreaking and tragic and bittersweet.... but things can only be really heartbreaking and tragic against the backdrop of our glorious hope. Basically I would write music for the 21st century that was firmly rooted in a Christian aesthetic.
If I could be an athlete...
...I wouldn't be constantly bumping into things, for one thing, and my apartment would be a lot cleaner. My sport would never be more than a hobby, but I think that the discipline would stand me in good stead in all areas of my life, making me a better citizen of the physical universe.
If I could be an architect...
...I would first have invested heavily in South American hardwood, because I despise both carpeting and the destruction of rainforests. By investing in South American tree farms, I would be providing good employment for local laborers and gorgeous floors for my homes... all in an environmentally friendly sort of way.
Okay... now I think I shall tag Sharon, and Becka, and Snugbug Snell.
Here are the "questions." Answer five of them, and tag three more friends. =) If I could be a scientist...If I could be a farmer...If I could be a musician...If I could be a doctor...If I could be a painter...If I could be a gardener...If I could be a missionary...If I could be a chef...If I could be an architect...If I could be a linguist...If I could be a psychologist...If I could be a librarian...If I could be an athlete...If I could be a lawyer...If I could be an inn-keeper...If I could be a professor...If I could be a writer...If I could be a llama-rider...If I could be a bonnie pirate...If I could be an astronaut...If I could be a world famous blogger...If I could be a justice on any one court in the world...If I could be married to any current famous political figure...
7.25.2005
Centrifugal Force
I must say, the physical universe is a very exciting place!
7.24.2005
Attack of the Rabid Giraffe
Alas, it did not occur to mommy that perhaps the giraffe might not seem quite so friendly if he was foaming at the mouth.
We still play with the giraffe at bathtime. But he is strictly for rinsing, now.
7.22.2005
Spam
"Elena, electric chair at little or no cost!"
Gulp.
Took me a second to figure out that they were selling motorized wheelchairs.
7.21.2005
Soggy
This meant Bathtime. Bathtime can be quite an... um... adventure with two toddlers, if you know what I mean. One time a few weeks ago, I got the boys all ready to hop in, and as we waited for the tub to fill, naked little Isaiah peed all over the floor, slipped in the resulting puddle, and hit his head. Like I said, it can be an adventure.
But this time I was smart. I filled the tub before undressing the boys. I tidied up the bathroom, cleaned out the tub, adjusted the water temperature, and left to get the boys ready while the tub filled. Like any good, conscientious mother, I of course carefully shut the bathroom door behind me lest a small person sneak in for an unsupervised dip.
Things took a bit longer than I expected --with toddlers they generally do!-- and by the time I went to see if the tub was full...
...let's just say that it was.
The boys had lots of fun wading, while the rubber ducky floated merrily on the floor. One cup at a time, I scooped the water off the floor into the toiled, and the wuggies gleefully joined in, sprinkling tiny fistfulls of water.
And that big pile of dirty laundry in the hallway got a good pre-soak.
7.06.2005
Things I learned yesterday
2. So are toilets.
3. Diapers can absorb an astonishing quantity of water.
4. So can little sneakers and corderoy pants.
5. This last can be a bit disturbing to anyone who is unaware of 1.
6. Automatic doors are extremely bizarre, and just a little bit scary.
7. So are swinging gates.
8. On most elevators, there is only one button within wuggy-reach... the alarm button, of course.
9. Likewise, on most bulletin boards, there is only one announcement within reach. The one that will start the largest chain reaction when tugged upon.
10. Dancing on manhole covers is great fun.
12. Trees look like flowers when viewed from below.
7.05.2005
Let there be light!
Moving from the ridiculous to the sublime, I've been musing about Biblical poetry in general, and Genesis 1 in particular. The other day I read the creation account in the New Living Translation, and was horrified to discover that the refrain "and there was evening, and there was morning, the first day" was replaced with "this all happened the first day." Certainly that's an accurate distillation of the bottom line, clearly and directly expressing the total factual content implied in the phrase. At cost, of course, of the rhythm and poetry.
Until I deeply explored the first few chapters of Genesis, the factual status of the account was deeply important to me. My faith cannot rest on a Book that is demonstrably false at the outset. If the first chapters fall, the rest of Scripture falls with it. "Liberals" may interperet it as mere poetry, but surely that's just an euphamism for nonsense... I saw theistic evolution as something along the same lines as a metaphorical interperetation of the resurrection.
But... then I actually experienced the poetry. Regardless of factual status, to call the Genesis account primarily poetic is most certainly not a euphamism. The deeper I delved into its richness, the less I was concerned with its literal accuracy. Genesis may or may not shed significant light on natural history, but in any case, that makes up a small portion of the meaning packed into those lines. The question of how God actually went about creating life began to seem a relatively trivial distraction from the more significant insights into the relationships between God, man, time, and nature.
It's so easy for people like me to busily distract ourselves with analyzing factual questions as a sort of protection against the life-shaping power of poetry. Ironic that this would be my tendency as a musician... perhaps it is because I'm particularly vulnerable... Discussions of what happened on what day, how long the days were, and how to account for the geologic record are relatively safe. Stimulating and pious, they don't require much change. At the end of the day, the Christian life remains the same no matter how God chose to create the universe. The poetry, on the other hand, is anything but safe. It penetrates deep into the human soul, demands that we conform to its rhythms and cadences... 'tis most uncomfortable to our fallen selves.
And we, too, who are His spiritual creation, remain formless and void until we hear His Word speak to our hearts "Let there be light!"
And there was evening, and there was morning, the first day.
7.04.2005
The handwriting is on the wall...
...and the chairs
...
6.21.2005
Bananas!
Sigh. I used to make fun of couples who called one another "Ma" and "Pa." Now if I approach Andy while he's busy with bedtime snacks, the moment I open my mouth, I find it full of yogurt.
6.19.2005
Sing-alongs
But then on one song, there was an entirely superfluous line of backup vocals... entirely superfluous, and rather off-key.
Then I discovered that it was just Isaiah humming along. Come to think of it, it was pretty impressive after all!
Musings on the Eucharist
I don't remember the circumstances... something trivial must have gone awry... in any case, a humiliating awareness of my inadequacy seized my consciousness. I dug my nails into my flesh, bracing myself, as it were, as gruesome and all-too-familiar images of self mutilation flooded over me. I reasoned with myself that I was grossly over-reacting. My little embarrassment was really insignificant, and not entirely my fault, anyway. Certainly nothing to justify the ghastly judgments I was envisioning.
And yet... all was not utterly trivial. All my failings loomed over me in a great tangled jumble. The most prominent were absurd in their insignificance, but hiding behind them were pride, jealousy, bitterness, laziness, and self-absorption.
Nevertheless, my self-hatred was quite unneccessary, since the things I was really upset about didn't even matter much at all.
I was condemned by the very triviality of my offenses. I was more concerned over minor embarrassment than real sin. There was no way out.
Strange... those moments when we see in startling clarity the truth of words oft repeated and long believed. From toddlerhood I knew that the cross was the answer to the abstract theological necessity that my blood be shed. Suddenly I clearly saw it as the answer to the very immediate psychological necessity of my destruction. I need no other argument, I need no other plea. Indeed, I have none.
And so I eat of His broken flesh, drink of the life-blood poured out for the sins of many, and live, utterly justified, in undeserved wholeness.
Thanks be to God!
6.18.2005
For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction...
Oh yes.
Flowers!
Meanwhile, Nathan will point to flowers saying "Fffff!"
6.17.2005
In the driver's seat
Driving has never been a tremendous strength of mine, since I haven't done a whole lot of it. But as long as I stick to familiar routes, I'm reasonably safe and competent... unless Andy is in the car. It will start out with a little shifting error. Andy will comment that I stayed in first a little too long. I'll get flustered, and immediately shift into fourth. Things snowball from there, and as we argue, I miss our turn. By the time we finally reach our destination, we are quite at each other's throats.
Yes, having Nener drive is a bad thing to do together.
But it really is quite hampering to have only one of us comfortable navigating the LA freeway system. Even more, Andy pointed out, it was hampering to always have him in the driver's seat, metaphorically speaking. Andy's a take-charge sort or person by nature, and I'm more laid back. If there's a decision to be made, and nobody seems to be making it, Andy will quickly step in and fill the void. I, on the other hand, am incapable of making any decision whatsoever without first ascertaining that I couldn't possibly be stepping on the toes of anyone's imaginary monkey. Which generally means that Andy ends up running the family since nobody else is, while I dutifully stay out of the way, anxious lest I disturb his inscrutible master plan.
So we decided that whenever we get in the car together, I should get in the driver's seat by default... and Andy is not allowed to make any comments. Easier said than done. Old habits die hard. Transmissions, on the other hand, die quickly, so we modified the rules to allow for one shifting comment per trip. That one comment is generally used up within a block or two, and the rest of the trip is spent in playful banter as Andy struggles valiantly to keep quiet.
One of Andy's students, upon amusedly observing our interactions while riding with us the other day, commented how nice it would be if his parents could get along as we did.
We've come a long way, baby.
So... wanna go shopping for peanut butter tonight?
Or not.
6.16.2005
Rage
Yesterday, under the influence of pregnancy hormones, I flew into quite a rage over absurdities with our apartment complex. Isaiah stared, enthralled, as I stormed about the living room, shouting my indignation and searching for harmless items to destroy. Then, gleefully, he began to join in, flapping his arms wildly, and shouting.
It may have been a pretty good impression, but the huge grin somewhat ruined the effect... and softened my rage.
=)
6.13.2005
Hello again!
After months of silence, I'm emerging once again into the world of blogging. Hopefully.
We still don't have a computer (I'm at Biola right now) but our apartment is now officially in condition to support a computer.
Amazing how complicated that can be. You cannot have a computer until you have a place to put said computer. This place should not be in close proximity to a heater. It also should not be in close proximity to toddlers. Yes, we learned both of these lessons the hard way.
The first criterion is not terribly difficult to meet, once you realize the need to take it into consideration, since heater vents generally tend to stay in the same place. Of course, as we discovered last night, this principle does not necessarily apply to the grates covering them, due to the migratory nature of toddlers... but that is another tale for another day. The point is that the the migratory nature of toddlers also serves to make the second criterion for computer placement rather more complicated. Anything that can be climbed upon will be climbed upon....
But now we have a nice, enclosed hutch, and soon we will have a computer to go in it.
AFTER we get some toddler locks!
5.13.2005
A new career.
This is why I haven't posted in a while.
4.20.2005
A soul at rest
More significantly, though, this is the first time that a piece of mine has not been expressive of tremendous pathos. It's simply tranquil and a little bit playful. The sort of thing that I always found impossible to even play without infusing it with all sorts of extraneous emotions.
Thank you Jesus, for your peace.
Quickening!
Singleton pregnancy is a new experience for me... I like it!
Everything's just ducky
Now Nathan calls everything "guck." He has begun pointing to things, and gleefully exclaiming "guck!"
Here I thought he'd learned associated the word with the object. It turns out he's associated it with the action of pointing.
They're such delightful little people, and I love them more by the minute.
4.19.2005
Carbonated sugar water
So it was that on my last trip to KFC, I found myself ordering a medium Pepsi despite all my good intentions. It wasn't very crowded, so I let the pickles doopa about while I enjoyed my meal. As I watched my rambunctious boys drag chairs from table to table about the dining room, I saw another exhausted mom stumble in after her two boys. They were every bit as energetic as mine, but being considerably larger, had a much greater capacity for mischief. Their mom was obviously quite worn out trying to keep up with them. All four kids had a great time playing together, as the mom became frustrated trying to figure out what her sons wanted for lunch.
In the course of their explorations, the younger boy, about 7, grew bored with the pinball machine and turned his attention to the soda fountain. One by one, he poked his finger up each of the taps, pausing to lick it off before proceeding to the next one.
Our budget is much indebted to that little boy. Just thought I'd pass this service on my readers. =)
3.30.2005
A little less wise...
Yesterday I had an impacted wisdom tooth removed. The world is much brighter today. My sons are once again my darling wuggies, no longer the monsters they were the first half of the week. ("What? You want milk?!? But I fed you yesterday, you little...")
The whole experience was a surprisingly good one. The doctor was very good with the psychology of pain management. He gave the anesthetic a little bit at a time to minimize the pain, but when it came time for the final shot, he told me that this one was going to hurt. And he poked me, to show me precisely where it would hurt. Sure enough, it hurt... but I was ready for it. Then when it came time for the actual extraction, he poked first my nose, then my jaw. "See, pressure doesn't hurt. But it's quite easy to fool yourself into thinking it does." Because he had been honest in telling me when something was going to be painful, I could believe him when he told me that this wouldn't hurt. And so I ignored the sickening crack, and it didn't hurt. I'm so used to doctors and dentists trying to reassure you by lying about how it isn't going to hurt a bit.... which is really rather terrifying. In stead of giving you the reassuring thought that it isn't going to hurt, it produces the idea in your mind that you are in the hands of an untrustworthy torturer, and who knows what he's going to do to you. Honesty is really refreshing. Anyway, if you ever find yourself in need of an oral surgeon in the Whittier area, I can highly recommend Dr. Brian Chung.
Besides, he has everything all decorated with surf boards, flip-flops, and In-N-Out ads. How cool is that?
3.28.2005
Tootti Flutti
And so he wanders about the apartment all day, mumbling "du-gu-du-gu-du-gu-du-gu-du-gu."
Silly boy. He should start out by cleaning up his single tonguing.
Oh, how I love September...
Meanwhile, this is a time of great personal growth, both for me and for the family at large.
3.19.2005
Share the Luvs
"I like your diapers, especially how they hug the baby's legs. My granddaughter uses them now. We are passing them down from generation to generation."
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2.20.2005
Failed Epics
Thus it was with great disappointment that I pulled out Andy's old soundtrack from the musical. It's... a musical. A good musical, full of delightful, charming songs. Broadway at its best.
But the Phantom, after all, haunts the Paris Opera, not Broadway. Whatever the merits of Webber's score, it is not music of the soaring beauty that drives men mad. His songs are the songs of a wonderful evening's entertainment, not the songs of sirens. And as lovely and lucid as the performance was, it lacked that inexplicable genius which forms the entire theme of the story. Sarah Brightman has a gorgeous voice, but I am not entirely convinced that she has heard the Angel of Music.
I was pontificating to Andy the other day, voicing my complaints against the predictable love songs written for this delicately unexpected romance, and the bombastically forceful overture with absolutely no harmonic interest to justify its sweeping pretentions. As Andy responded, I realized that this conversation was treading on very familiar territory. My husband, as usual, took pity on Webber, the composer, the man. Was I saying that this man's greatest work was a failure? Well, no... it's really good, just nowhere near good enough to justify the subject matter.
My mind flipped back to a similar conversation we'd had a while back about Michael Card. I absolutely love his Ancient Faith album. He beautifully draws out the poignant stories of individual men as they weave in and out of the grand story of redemption. It's absolutely breathtaking.
I am much less impressed, however, with his album based around the book of Revelation. He seems to be rather over-reaching himself, trying to paint a sort of grandeur that he simply does not have the tools to paint. As a result, the overture in particular winds up coming across as bombastic rather than profound.
Although it wasn't Andy's favorite of Card's album's either, he was almost personally hurt by my harsh critique. Was I saying that Card is a failure? Of course not--just that he should stick to approaching the Great Story via the small stories of particular men. But Andy still thought that I was being a bit harsh to tell someone that they should stick to the little stuff, leaving the big stuff for people like Bach and Handel.
I still think I'm right in a sense. It's not just about the skills of a particular composer, it's about the capacities of a form. The music in a Broadway musical can only go so deep. It must be easily accessible to the general public, and it cannot build up much of a macrostructure, being necessarily broken up by dialogue. A musical can do a lot of things, but it cannot produce the sort of music that the Phantom is about. In the same way, I really do think that a ballad is well suited to tell Abraham's story, probably better than an oratorio could. But to sing about Revelation, you probably need an oratorio.
Nevertheless... at the end of the day, would you rather be Milton, your life's work a failed epic, a deeply flawed poem reaching for magnificent grandeur, striving to explicate the deepest mysteries of God and Man, and failing...
....Or Steinbeck, with his really excellent, practically perfect novels.
Cannery Row is just about flawless. Mack's complaints in the intro to Sweet Thursday notwithstanding, I can't think of any room for imrovement. Funny and endearing and poignant and tragic, it gives humanity and dignity to the lives of the bums and whores and drunks and loonies in a tiny close-knit community on the Monterey Bay. It's a fabulous book.
But then again, I suspect that Handel was overreaching himself too, I just don't know enough to see it.
And aren't we all failed epics?
Someday there is redemption and wholeness. But woe to him who has safely buried his treasure.
2.08.2005
Sold
And they're wonderful!
They are actually really beautiful, setting the movements of everyday toys to music, incorporating rhythm and grace into the elements that make up a child's experience. They integrate aesthetic appreciation into a child's natural wonder and curiousity. They are very tasteful, being geared toward the simplicity of a child's comprehension, rather than toward the crudity of a child's taste. The boys are enthralled, and I, a classically trained musician, am not above delighting in its beauty.
Another wonderful thing is that they invite human interaction. The DVDs call themselves "digital board books," and indeed, the boys and I had lots of fun pointing out everything on the screen. The videos are so low-key that there is plenty of room for mommy to be involved.
All in all, I was very excited to see such a wonderful use of the available technology. The technology was used in such a way as to conform to a child's developmental needs, rather than conforming a child's development to the technology.
Meanwhile, moving from the sublime to the ridiculous, we watched a decidedly mediocre childrens show on PBS the other day. We watched it, not because we were particularly fascinated by the plight of the lazy, unmotivated insurance salesman, but because the advertisement at the begining of the show informed us that it was funded through the No Child Left Behind Act, and I was curious to find out what it was that they had deemed a higher priority than sufficient textbooks for underprivileged schools.
I am rather bewildered...
2.07.2005
Zen and the Art of Kitchen Floor Maintainance
Yes, the boys got into the sugar.
I always did think Zen gardens were pretty sweet...
2.06.2005
Waiting...
It seem's that Andy's boss was bragging about him down at headquarters, and landed him an unsolicited interview with The Head Honcho. Thanks to our wonderful neighbors, Andy was actually able to attend said interview, unhindered by the ill-timed accident our turtle-mobile attended immediately prior. Andy hit it off smashingly (no pun intended, thankfully!) with the Head Honcho, and walked away with the offer of a full-time position. Not only will he be teaching lots of math classes, but he will also be working with a very cool visionary math/philosophy guy on curriculum development. Perfect mentoring environment---and they'll even pay for his credentialing!!! Adequate salary, great benefits.... All in all a blessing from above.
The only problem is... we don't know when the job starts.
Can't make any plans, because any day now, they could call him in...
Can't choose a new pediatrician until we know if we're going to be on Blue Cross or Medi-Cal...
Can't actually hire the mother's helpers we've lined up, or tell them they can start looking for a different job...
Uncertainty---it's the gift that keeps on giving.
*cue Jeopardy theme*
1.30.2005
Title I
Andy's job at the charter school in Whittier pays an excellent wage, but it's been a struggle to collect enough hours to make ends meet. Thus it was a huge answer to prayer when Andy's boss told him that through Title I, the school had funds set aside for remedial tutoring for students with low test scores. In all, his boss estimated that there was probably around four hours a week of semi-private math tutoring for Andy to do--at $30/hr. that's a sizable chunk of rent!--and sent him to talk to The Title I Guy. But the Title I Guy had a few reservations. Andy hadn't been there too long... wouldn't want to pile on too much responsibility all at once... maybe he should wait until he'd settled in a month or two...
<>So Andy waited a month or two, and got himself thoroughly settled in, as the students got further and further behind, and parents began to wonder where the promised tutoring was. Finally Andy's boss had a little chat with The Title I guy, and with great hesitation, he at last relinquished The List. This was a list of epic proportions. Five pages long, and nearly as wide, it contained the names, contact information, and test scores of every underachieving student in the great state of California who was, or ever had been, enrolled in the Gorman system. Our eyes grew wide as we gazed upon The List--a veritable gold mine brimming with gainful employment. All we had to do was sort through and find the students who lived near the Whittier site, and then sort them into groups of 2-4 students at the same level, coordinate everyone's schedules, and we would be all set.In other words, all we had to do was endure a nightmare of logistics. But the first step was simple enough. Armed with the Thomas Guide and a compass, we made a list of all the cities within a reasonable radius of Whittier, and then made another list composed of the intersection of The List and our list.
I tried the next call.
"Hello, this is--"
"Dad! I've got it!"
"This is Elena Johnston, and my--"
"Dad! Would you get off the phone?! I said I've got it!"
"My husband Andrew is a math teach--"
"Oh! Is this Mrs. Johnston? Are you Mr. Johnston's wife? I'm Amanda. This is so exciting! Mr. Johnston is my favorite teacher in the whole world! I've heard all about you and the twins... I bet they're cute."
"*chuckle* Yeah, they're a lot of fun. Maybe you'll get to meet them sometime when I bring them by. It was good to meet you, Amanda. Is your mom or dad around by any chance?"
"Oh, sure! You wanna talk to my dad?"
"That'd be great."
"Da-ad! It's for you!"
<>Some weeks later, Andy's boss told him about another boy who qualified for Title I. She said that this boy was working at the same level as one of the girls he was already tutoring, so it would work perfectly to put them together. That night Andy called the boy's parents. "Well, Mrs. Davis, if Thursday at 4 works with your schedule, I'm tutoring another third grader at that time, and I'd like to put them together.""Uh... Jimmy's in fifth grade."
1.17.2005
Home fragrances
Looking on the bright side, the wuggies have acheived that important developmental milestone of unscrewing bottle caps.
1.15.2005
To tutor two tooters to toot...
In case you haven't noticed, I'm rather proud of my little son.
In other news, and speaking of first kisses, not only is my firstborn prodigiously musical, but he is very cute and extraordinarily kissable. This is not just the opinion of his biased mother.... last night my opinion was quite corroborated by the lovely Brigid Elizabeth. Beautiful Brigid was enthralled with Nathan, grabbing his nose and kissing his forehead. It was very sweet.
I do hope Autumn won't be too jealous.
I found ink.
Now if only I could find the nib that I dropped in the ink...
1.12.2005
A Remarkable Discovery
Moreover, I am getting a big kick out of my new job as secretary to Andy's tutoring business.
Anyone who knows me moderately well will immediately brecognize just how remarkable this discovery is.
Who'd'a thunk it?
First Kiss
I'm as thrilled as a giddy 16 year old... He loves me!
Happy Birthday!
God is faithful.
1.09.2005
The battle of the office supplies was less successful. We sustained heavy losses, though minor in comparison to those we inflicted. As we beat back the hordes, more kept appearing. For every pencil we subdued, a dozen paper clips appeared. We were a small band against a multitude, and this ongoing battle was tying up much-needed resources at a tactically insignificant outpost. Eventually we were forced to make our retreat.
All day we pressed on, imposing order upon the unyielding masses. Our dungeons were filled with prisoners, box upon box of pre-pregnancy clothes and craft supplies, nevermore to menace the Shire. Some we destroyed, but most we preserved, treating them generously in the hope that they would eventually turn from the darkness and enter into the service of order and light.
The enemy proved fey indeed, piercing our hearts with despair, but our captain is a man of great valour, and even as our spirits failed us, he led on, inspiring us with courage to face the darkness.
Night fell, and the land was strewn with carnage. Our hopes for swift victory were crushed. We had made great progress, but our foe was far more formidible than he had seemed. We were weary to the bone, and could hardly move, but to clear space for an encampment would take hours. At last our fearless captain hung his head in despair.
His courage had girded me up throughout the day, and now, as defeat was upon him, I rose up with a daring and foolhardy plan. There was only a fool's hope, but it was our only hope--we would sleep on our own bed, and the wuggies would sleep in their own bed... alone. It was a small matter to clear a path through the bedroom, revealing an emerging order within the gloom. I spread our bed with a gorgeous new quilt--the last of the many given to us as wedding gifts. I gently rocked Meepo and sang to him, laying him in his crib just before he went to sleep. He started, and began to whimper, but as I stroked his back, he began to relax again, and eventually went to sleep. Wuggidy had already fallen asleep on the living room floor, and we left him there, covering him snugly in a blanket, until such time as he would awaken. Then, basking in the magnitude of even this partial victory, we slipped between the sheets and fell asleep.
Several times Nathan woke and began to cry, but each time, after a breathless, agonizing moment, he put himself back to sleep, face pressed against the mesh walls of the wuggy bucket. Hours later, Isaiah woke up, and I brought him to bed and laid him between us. I gave him the breast and he was quiet, and did not significantly disturb our sleep. Eventually Nathan awoke in earnest, and would not console himself. I thought it best not to press the issue, and allowed him to join us. With battles behind and battles before, we could not afford to waste our precious hours of repose seeking yet more battles. Nevertheless, when we awoke the next morning, we found that although they slept with us, the night had passed in relative peace, and we were refreshed.
The second day progressed in grim silence. Every step was dogged by piles of boxes, crates, and high chairs, but we pressed on. We paused for refreshment in a small clearing in the office corner, and gathered around a large dish of chocolate chip muffins. There was plenty to go around, but the muffins are always chocolatier on the other side of the fence, and quarrels broke out amoung the hobbits in our ranks. Eventually they were content to sit quietly, crumbling their own muffins, and of the pieces I gathered twelve basketsful.
We came to rue having left the office supplies unsubdued. Small and insignificant though they seemed, items of great power hid among their midst, and the hobbits, ever with a keener eye to mischief than to sense, found them and began to toy with them, oblivious to their potency. As Andrew swooped down to their rescue, I built a strong fortress to keep the indomitable horde at bay, and all was well.
Slowly peace and order spread throughout the Shire, and our hearts sang as we saw the black shadow that had oppressed us for so long lifting away. All that was left was to clean up after the battles. In jubilant celebration, we turned on the CD player.
The introduction of Aeolian music lifted our spirits, but weakened our resolve. The move was not an utter mistake, however. As the hobbits merrily danced and clapped their hands, there were fewer domestic quarrels to distract us. If only we could remain undistracted by the unquenchable rhythm of our own dancing feet.
The great battles were over, but the small battles yet to come were intense indeed. We marched in and aroused the dormant horrors that had haunted us for so long, facing them at last so that we could vanquish them once and for all. The nauseating stench rose about us, but we pressed on, steeling ourselves.
At last, we were finished, and we were free. But before we could rest at last, there was one final battle to be fought.
It was time to put Mr. Wuggidy in his jammies.
1.07.2005
Fountains of Ink
But I don't have any ink.
I didn't think this would be much of a problem, but it turns out neither JoAnns nor Staples carries bottled ink. When I was in Wal-Mart the other day, I searched high and low among the pens, with no success. I did, however, find an employee--a miraculous occurence in a SoCal Wallies. Even more miraculously, she was quite willing to help me, even though she was presumably headed on break with her blue vest tucked under her arm. I probably shouldn't have bugged her... but seeing an employee is such a rare occurence, you can't afford to quibble about whether or not they're actually on duty.
In any case, this young woman was quite friendly and helpful. Did I need refill ink cartriges for a pen? No, bottled ink, like you'd use for a fountain pen.
She paused for a moment, then said "I'm not sure if we have any in yet, but if we did, they'd be in the garden department."
The garden department? Why in the world would it be in the garden department?
She shrugged her shoulders. "I don't know. That's just where we keep them."
Suddenly, recognition flashed across her face. "Oh! You mean for caligraphy!"
She then directed me toward the scrapbooking and crafts section. Which didn't have what I was looking for, either, but at least it made sense.
Looks like I'll have to make a trip out to Michaels.
1.06.2005
There's a hole in my bucket...
There was just one problem.
In order to eat cheerios for breakfast, you must have clean bowls and spoons.
In order to have clean bowls and spoons, you must do the dishes.
In order to do the dishes, you must have a clean dishrag.
In order to have a clean dishrag you must do the laundry.
You know... bananna muffins are sounding really good right now...
1.04.2005
Free Twins
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1.03.2005
Back to the Pickle-Pad!
The wuggies feel it, too, and they relish their mobility. At last, they are back in doopah-land, land of the free and home of the brave, where no china sits on low shelves, and the Christmas tree is wired to the wall. There is freedom in babyproofing. For the boys... but mostly for mom!
12.26.2004
Housebound
...if we can figure out what the wuggies did with the car keys.
Ole!
Anyway, at Wally's I found a little maraca containing a band of little bobbly fruit-shaped dancers, who start playing the first few bars of the Mexican Hat Dance and shouting Bravo! and Ole! whenever.a wuggy shakes the maraca. This is every bit as much a hit as I expected, and Natebug is surprisingly good at it. As soon as the music starts playing, he adjusts his beat accordingly, with admirable acuracy. I do believe that he has as good a sense of rhythm as I did before I came to college and sat under Gary's tutelage. (My, did he have to go to extreme measures with me! I recall whole flute lessons spent marching around the music building, subdividing my footsteps. My walk was irregular, my heartbeat was irregular... and I could not persuade my flute to keep a steady beat. I've come a long way... Now I can play other people's music with only a little bit of rubato, although my own music is still of a very fluid metre. It does my still-arrhythmic heart good to see my little son so rhythmically precocious!)
The bug-a-nate has finally put down his maraca, and is instead shaking his sleeping father's glasses. I'd best go rescue them!
12.20.2004

Whenever we go out, Natebug is very solemn and contemplative, just taking it all in. You know... I'm rather grateful for this...
My husband is a bachelor...
of the sciences, that is.
It's a really good feeling... we're right exactly where God wants us as a family. Andy is done with school, and is doing what he loves, and what he feels called to do. He's changing kids lives.
And I'm doing what I love best, and as I cuddle my wuggies, music flows from my pen. Yeah, yeah, everything's up in the air, Andy still needs more work, etc. etc. etc. But I feel an incredible sense of peace and right-ness.
This is where we're supposed to be... and I'm ever so glad we get to take part in this adventure together.
and the kings who ruled them had courage and greatness.
We have heard of those princes' heroic campaigns...
Natebug has been practicing to be a great warrior, learning to control his spear... well... the broom anyway. It's hard work, heavy and unwieldy, but Meepo has the spelunknoi.
Oh yes.
Cider
Anyway, this morning I found Natebug vigorously going at a sippy cup. I hadn't given him a cup this morning, neither had Dadders...and it was full of hard cider.
Suddenly everything fell into place. The boys are operating their own brewery, hiding their sippy cups behind the couch, in the toy basket, and behind the tree...
Time to crack down on the operation.
12.18.2004
Xtreme Sports
Until he goes splat.
Then it is not so fun.
12.13.2004
The eggducation of hatchlings
But I digress. While we were in the store, we looked various educational toys for pickles of the small variety. They had a lovely little play area, in which the wuggies sat upon little pint-sized stuffed chairs, grabbed a toy train from a little boy, played with a different toy train, grabbed toy trains out of each others hands, and played with the eggs. It was one of those toys consisting of a row of small characters which pop up when you push the button, flip the appropriate switch, or whatever. In most such toys, the characters are hidden under a flap door, but in this case, they were concealed inside an egg. When you push the button, the creature "hatches." I thought it was immensely cute, and contemplated getting it for a Christmas present. However, the boys found it interesting... but no more interesting than the massive quantity of toys that already covers our living room floor.
What to get the boys for Christmas? They like the noisy toys---the little "piano," the talking lizard, and the pajama-clad "Prayer Bear" that recites "Now I lay me down to sleep." And they especially like taking canned goods out of the pantry. But what they really get the biggest kick out of is just anything new. They spend their days going doopah-doopah all over the place, in search of new experiences.
I always thought of the day-after-Christmas-boredom phenomenon as something pernicious, a sign of ingratitude and discontent. Certainly we ought to learn to appreciate what we do have, instead of always wanting more, more, more. Yet can we really be surprised, or upset even, that the much desired sparkly toys lose their charm once obtained? A child's task is to learn, learn, learn, and he pursues that task with vigour. He must see the world in different, new ways, he must add new experiences to his perception of the world. Toys are generally designed to give a child wonderful new experiences, which, by definition, cease to be new rather quickly.
Perhaps the toys which would be most conducive to fun would be those which encourage them to explore deep, rather than wide, enabling them to see different elements of the things that already surround them, rather than just showing them new stuff. As in math, the best sort of fun is intrinsic to the structure of the world, not extrinsic.
At Trader Joes, they gave the boys a perfectly marvelous educational toy--a helium balloon. They were utterly enthralled. This strange red globe contradicted everything they had figured out about gravity. They spent the afternoon conferring together, trying to expand their theory to account for this new phenomenon.
Of course, even a balloon loses its charm after a while, not to mention its helium, and so late last night they found something else to get into.And thus it came about that we found the kitchen floor covered in eggs.
12.11.2004

Our four-gnerational Thanksgiving. In the background you can see Isaiah conked out in the new high chair Grandma and Grandpa brought him.

Aunt Sarah, setting the table for Thanksgiving dinner. Does she not have the most incredibly gorgeous hair you've ever seen? The wuggies found it enthralling...

My daddy just sent me a CD full of the pictures he took over thanksgiving. Here's Natebug playing with his spiffy ball. Incidentally, that ball truly is one of the spiffiest balls I have ever seen. When you bounce it, or hit it just right, it starts flashing red and blue. Natebug, as enthralled with light as ever, finds it particularly fascinating.
12.09.2004
Clickety-clack!
Speaking of Isaiah's hands, yesterday we noticed that he has picked up one of his Dadders' mannerisms. As Andy was taking a moment to assess what he next needed to do, he leaned back a bit, and, as he often does in this attitude, absent-mindedly rested his wrists on his stomach and patted his middle rhythmically a few times---then looked down to see Isaiah doing the exact same thing. It was very cute... oh well, I guess you just had to be there.
12.08.2004
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12.04.2004
One small step for Isaiah...
11.30.2004
Thanksgiving
No matter. They were right there, sitting next to us in high chairs, throwing mashed potatoes around and playing with cranberry sauce.
One year ago... just yesterday, and an eternity ago. This Christmas will be very different from the last... and yet the same. Last Christmas was Advent, was Lent. The year has cycled around, and we are back again, and now it is Christmas, now it is Easter, and now we sing with loud hallelujas.
Praise be to God Almighty, source of life and every good gift, and glory be to Christ His Son, who became incarnate, who made himself a feeble child for the salvation of my children. All honor and wisdom and power and strength be to Him who sustains our faith through the long desolate night. All majesty belongs to Him who is faithful, who fulfils his promises at last, and breaks forth in radiant light.
Lo, the winter is past and the rain is gone...
Even so, come quickly, Lord Jesus!
Thanksgiving
No matter. They were right there, sitting next to us in high chairs, throwing mashed potatoes around and playing with cranberry sauce.
One year ago... just yesterday, and an eternity ago. This Christmas will be very different from the last... and yet the same. Last Christmas was Advent, was Lent. The year has cycled around, and we are back again, and now it is Christmas, now it is Easter, and now we sing with loud hallelujas.
Praise be to God Almighty, source of life and every good gift, and glory be to Christ His Son, who became incarnate, who made himself a feeble child for the salvation of my children. All honor and wisdom and power and strength be to Him who sustains our faith through the long desolate night. All majesty belongs to Him who is faithful, who fulfils his promises at last, and breaks forth in radiant light.
Lo, the winter is past and the rain is gone...
Even so, come quickly, Lord Jesus!
Thanksgiving
No matter. They were right there, sitting next to us in high chairs, throwing mashed potatoes around and playing with cranberry sauce.
One year ago... just yesterday, and an eternity ago. This Christmas will be very different from the last... and yet the same. Last Christmas was Advent, was Lent. The year has cycled around, and we are back again, and now it is Christmas, now it is Easter, and now we sing with loud hallelujas.
Praise be to God Almighty, source of life and every good gift, and glory be to Christ His Son, who became incarnate, who made himself a feeble child for the salvation of my children. All honor and wisdom and power and strength be to Him who sustains our faith through the long desolate night. All majesty belongs to Him who is faithful, who fulfils his promises at last, and breaks forth in radiant light.
Lo, the winter is past and the rain is gone...
Even so, come quickly, Lord Jesus!
11.20.2004
The day wears on...
I have also read a few pages of a devotional book, the slipcover of which is also now falling to pieces. If anyone requires the services of a paper shredder, I have two quite excellent ones who will be happy to help you in exchange for some important documents to rip up.
And I have located a recipe for enchiladas!
All in between diapers and feedings and cuddles and snoofles and nose-wipings and kisses and raspberries and playtime... I'm rather proud of myself.
Thus progresseth the day, and the progress therein....
Wuggy, Wuggy Crocket,
King of theWild Doopah-Land!
Born on a river-bank when he was three,
Killed a bumble-bear by swattin' at a bee!
Wuggy, Wuggy Crocket,
King of the Wild Doopah-Land!
A day in the life of a mommy...
It is 10:06am. 10:07 actually, by now. My, how the day flies by. By the end of the day, the kitchen will be babyproof and in a moderate state of cleanliness, yummy cheese enchiladas will be on the table, I will have codified the rhythms on one piece, and my newest piece will have emerged into a more certain shape.
I'm sorely tempted to add laundry to the list...
Oh, what the snorkle.... And I'm going to get all the laundry done!
Okay, okay... I'll get the laundry put away.
Gentlemommies, start your engines!
On your mark...
get set...
Go feed the screaming baby!
Escape from Doopah!
11.19.2004
Searching for glasses...
11.18.2004
A special 2-for-1 holiday offer....
*actual advertisement*
11.13.2004
Speaking of books...
Full Circle
Nibble, nibble, nibble, goes the mouse in my heart,
and the mouse in my heart is you.
11.12.2004
I dream of algebra...
Speaking of fish, Mr. Wugger's new favorite pastime is gnawing on a bright multi-colored plastic fish. (Rainbow trout?) We just need to be careful to limit him to 3 servings a week, due to mercury content....
But what constitutes a proper serving size for plastic fish?
11.09.2004
Wuggy, Put the Kettle On
Polly, put the kettle on,
Polly, put the kettle on,
Polly, put the kettle on,
And let's drink tea!
As I sang, there was a good deal of squirming going on, and before going on to Sukey's verse, I paused to figure out what Natebug was up to. He had pulled himelf up, and retrieved my tea-mug from the desk beside the couch, and was merrily drinking the dregs of my tea.
Meeper, put it back again,
Meeper, put it back again....
I'm very glad that the tea was lukewarm!
Get out your credit cards...
GREAT GIFTS...
GREATER PRICES!
Yes, indeed, the fish is on.






